This blog was begun to capture our adoption journey over five years ago and to express how life is a collage full of many experiences, people, joys and sorrows with one purpose – God’s glory. Today I write a new blog post for a new season in my life. After 20 years of marriage, an attempt at reconciliation and a divorce process, I have now been a single mom for a little over two years. This new life is a life of picking up the pieces after what I knew shattered. A life of learning to move forward one step at a time to rebuild while fighting for joy amongst the heartache.
My social media is full of my smiling face. I don’t post pictures of myself in a bucket of tears, but reality is those moments have frequented my past few years. These past years have been full of hurts, fears, acknowledgement of my own issues, forgiveness, confusion and losses that words can’t begin to express. They have also been years of seeing an army of friends and family whom the Lord encamped around us love, support and carry us when I didn’t think I could take the next breath. They’ve been years of praying with every thing in my soul for things and watching God answer – at times not in ways I wanted, but in ways He knew best. There has been loss so great that I can hardly conceptualize it. There has been reconciliation and blessings so amazing that I have stood in awe watching the hand of my God at work.
So the collage of life has continued. It has some new black spots on it as well as some new beautiful colors. There are areas that were shattered, but they are being put back together to form a new piece of art. It’s been a process… one that has taken much longer than my go-getter spirit likes, but my God is making a new thing.
I’ve now spent this past year rebuilding… my business… my life… my heart. Regarding my design business, I’ve been rebranding it with a new look, new name and expanded services that reflect my heart and journey while continuing to work with many wonderful clients. Regarding my life, we are slowly gaining a new normal. Regarding my heart, it’s starting to beat again in a transformed way. January 2019 will be a year to launch my newly branded design company and in some ways a renewed (and continually growing) me.
Going forward, I’ll blog on various topics to include unfolding the journey of my heart and the lessons the Lord has taught me over these past few years and those ahead… a journey of this girl – a bouncy, spirited, jovial girl whose life shattered, but whose heart God has been shaping as she slowly learns to live with joy (and bounce) again… I’ll probably add in some interior design stuff and random family activities also because well… I just like that stuff! I’ll blog for the next couple of days and then I’m not sure how often I’ll blog… we’ll just take it one step at at time.
My hope is that my journey would inspire your journey… for…
“We are more than conquerors through HIM who loved us… nothing will separate us from HIS love.”
Romans 8:37-38