I’ve been slave to my “Things to Do” list lately as I’m trying to make sure everything is in order to leave. I can be quite the task master at times! This morning I sit here a bit more still. The Lord has shown me that sometimes my “to-do” list can become an idol that takes over my mind and heart giving me the dillusion that finishing the task will bring peace and joy. Ha! I get happiness for a brief moment and then all I do it turn the page in my to-do journal and write more to-do’s! There is no peace in that! In this quiet morning, I’ve read more about His ultimate sovereignty coupled with reading about our what expectations should be when meeting Lanie. My heart is full as I think of Lanie’s little world. How excited and scared she must be to come and join our family. What is she thinking? What are her hopes? What are her fears? I can guess some of them. In some ways all four of us share some of these hopes and fear. Lord, help us to show your love to her and give peace to her anxious heart (and ours!).
As many of the “tasks” are completed (although my next 8 hours is still very full), we concentrate much more on meeting Lanie. What we will say? How will she respond? How can we best help her know she is loved and will be cared for by all three of us? So many questions and things to ponder, but thankfully I know the Lord has brought us this far through so many challenges and He will give us words to say (hopefully in Spanish) and actions to show His ultimate love for her through us. Thank you for the many prayers. Please keep them coming! The next few weeks will be quite an adventure full of “going with the flow” and many unknowns. We will take it moment by moment as we lean strongly on our Lord for wisdom, direction and strength each step of the way.
BTW – our meeting date to meet Lanie got moved to this Friday. That shouldn’t be a surprise. Nothing in this process is on schedule! Reality is God was good to give us an additional day to get settled in to Colombia before bringing Lanie into our family.
Now it’s back to that to-do list. We leave in eight hours! Unbelievable!